A Textbook on Addiction and Mental Illness

As those of you who know me are aware, I am a heroin addict in recovery.  Recovery does not travel in a straight line, especially with Major Mental Illness involved.
I have written a book of essays, with two poems included, about the inner workings of the mind of someone with Dual Diagnosis and Drug Addiction.   [...]

When The Enemy Is Me

from my book:Essays On Major Mental Illness with a Co-Occurring Substance Use Disorder or What Came First: The Chicken or The White Horse–
I look out at the world through the window of my disease.  The world peers back at me, a taunting, twisting version of itself that tells me it is real.
Trust is not an [...]

In The Dead Of Winter

Ice creeps up the windows. No snow in sight. The days start lengthening yet it is difficult for me to notice the difference.
One by one the Christmas decorations come off the houses. The nights seem longer than ever. This darkening of my mood is so familiar and yet it never ceases [...]